Dear future self,
(1) If you self injure yourself, clean and bandage it. (2) Do not start smoking cigarettes because the person you “love” yet broke your heart does. (3) When you want to end your life, don’t. (4) Cutting calories doesn’t do anything but make you unhappy. (5) If the number on the scale rises, throw it out. (6) When you want to end your life, don’t. (7) Break up with the boy who says, “You had a sexy phase!” when you tell him that you’ve dated a girl before. (8) If you’re in a relationship with someone and it seems like everybody is talking shit about it, just let them ramble. (9) If two people are happy, you leave them the fuck alone. (10) Oh yeah, and you can date your best friend and still be friends after you’ve broken up. (11) When you want to end your life, don’t. (12) Your closest friend might stop talking to you once you get into a relationship but that’s okay because it just proves she wasn’t a real friend anyways. (13) It’s always okay to cry. (14) One day, you’re going to meet someone and they are going to accept you for you and still love you anyways. Cherish that person…don’t let them go. (15) You know who I’m talking about when I say “they” but…THEY are going to try to tear your relationship with another individual apart. RUN AS FAR AS YOU CAN. DON’T LET THE BULLSHIT BRING THE TWO OF YOU DOWN. THEY’D KILL TO SEE YOU FALL. (16) When you want to end your life, don’t. (17) When you harm yourself again, clean and bandage it. Do not be ashamed. At least you are treating it. (18) When the boy with eyes like stars and bones like steel comes and sweeps you up into his life, you’re going to feel on top of the world, but when he leaves, your heart will turn to alcohol and you’ll be crying at 3AM wondering how you were ever happy. Did I ever tell you it’s okay to cry? Just as long as you don’t cry about the same thing twice. (19) Let me repeat that. Don’t cry about the same thing twice. (20) You still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want. (21) You’re going to be the nicest rude person people will ever meet…you won’t give a fuck about anything, but at the same time, you’ll care about a lot…and you’ll hate people generally but love people individually. (22) People are going to tell you that alcohol is bad for you. You’re also going to be told that loving that boy is bad for you too. Keep drinking. (23) Be more concerned about your character than your reputation … because your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think of you. (24) You won’t tell him but his hugs hold you together when you’re not strong enough to hold everything that you are together. (25) Do not confuse lust with love. You might feel like your insides are melting when he touches your thighs. But it will not be worth the pain of you lying on the bathroom floor sobbing at 4AM after he finds someone new. (26) You will be on the beach one day, a popular girl will point out the stretch marks that delicately lick your hips. She will look you in the eyes and laugh. Don’t you dare cover them up. You are a tiger. You have earned your fucking stripes. (27) You do not need someone else to complete you. Do things for yourself for once. (28) Your anxiety is going to try and control your entire life. Tell it to shut the fuck up, because you’re trying to live and that task is hard enough as it is. (29) Not to spoil the ending or anything, but it’s going to be okay. (30) When you want to end your life, DON’T.
things i’ve learned throughout my seventeen years of life (via warpedtoursmoshpit) —